I’m so glad the Messiah has finally come.
Let us all bask and worship in His glory. Let us bathe in the radiance that is His beautiful visage. Let us marvel at His words, thirsting for the coming knowledge of His redeeming, empowering rhetoric.
May all generations be humbled and strengthened by the grace and beauty that is our Lord Obama.
Amen.
I’m sorry to the guys I didn’t hang out with last night.
I hate the way I’m living. I feel completely stupid about it. I don’t want to be sitting around my room anymore. I’m sick of it. I need to take care of myself, get out there, and live. I HATE feeling like this. I don’t want to be a failure.
I know I don’t have any right to ask, but I would really appreciate any encouragement or support you guys could give me. I need to get this done. Pointers/tips, conversations, watching out for “help wanted” signs, whatever you guys can do would be great.
An opinion is not just an opinion. It can be right or wrong. Some people don’t understand this. Some people don’t understand that two mutually exculsive things cannot simultaneously be true. Some people think there is no truth.
Some people are fucking stupid.
I just got done arguing with someone about their worldview, which is PLAGUED by relativism. I HATE relativism. This person says “Truth and perception are the same to the person perceiving, so no one is good or evil, and nothing is right or wrong.”
When I disagreed, this person proceeded to ARGUE WITH ME!
How can someone believe that nothing is right or wrong, then ARGUE about it? If nothing is right or wrong, what you said isn’t right or wrong, either. So things being right or wrong is equally true for me as the opposite is for you. Congratulations, your world contradicts itself, and you’re wrong about everything.
Another thing that frustrates me about this relativistic bull shit is the fact that these same people are the ones who bitch and complain about the prosletization of religions and beliefs they don’t personally hold true. The people who whine about relativism and how “we can’t go somewhere and try to force our beliefs on someone, because everyone is entitled to believe whatever they want” are disregarding that belief by even saying so! If we can believe whatever we want and trying to change someone’s beliefs is wrong, then Christians have every right to believe that changing someone’s beliefs is RIGHT!
I’m about to fucking explode. I’m so angry about this shit.
“Dexter” may have surpassed Death Note as my favorite example of the potential of television programming.
If you are unfamiliar with the show’s premise, it is essentially about a serial killer . . . However, there’s a catch. This serial killer only kills OTHER serial killers. He has the same urge to hurt others, the same hunger to end life, but he channels it, using it to end the lives of those who harm innocents. He IS justice.
Apart from this AWESOME basic plot, the show is riddled with complex writing and themes which apply both to the show itself and to the real world.
The final episode of the season airs next Sunday. You should all catch up as soon as possible. I promise, this shit is BRILLIANT!
When I listen to songs that might be seen as overdramatic by some, or even Japanese songs that would be overdramatic if in English, it’s very easy for them to tug at my heart-strings. For example, I’ve been listening to “Paradise Lost” by Minori Chihara, who coincidentally played Yuki in “The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya”, and the song makes me feel like everyday life and the struggles it entails are SO EPIC!
The same goes for a lot of music, though. I just all-around LOVE epic music. It makes ME feel epic. Will once said that he loves a lot of rap because he applies what that person is saying to himself, so it makes him feel like that rapper and himself are the two COOLEST people in the world. I guess that’s what I’m doing with music lately. It makes me feel like I am in an epic, amazing struggle, and I LOVE it.
Does anyone else ever feel this way? And can anyone point me towards some great, epic music?
I’ve been having this ongoing argument on myanimelist with this dude who thinks that Death Note and Code Geass are secondary in terms of quality, writing, and intelligence to . . . . Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann.
He believes that I “just don’t understand the concept of the heroic journey or coming of age stories.” Seriously, what the fuck?
Talk about a fucking fanboy. This is like if I were to say “Nintendo has made a system with better graphics than the PS3. The Wii blows it away, you just don’t understand because you’re not educated enough about these things.”
NO!
To Greg: Yes, it would be better. I’m not trying to hate on Gurren Lagann, but I feel like I have to stress the bad points to make up for people like him.
I LOVE the ending theme to Samurai Champloo. It fills me up with this ridiculous love for life. Listening to it, I feel like I can just sit and think about the seasons coming to these places in Japan and BASK. Life is a beautiful thing, and sometimes, behind this veil of depression and shit I deal with, I forget that.
On the subject of songs from anime that I really like:
I also love the opening theme to Ga-rei Zero. This series took a few episodes to start actually even HAVING a theme. The first two, if not three, didn’t have an opening theme at all. Once it started, however, I really enjoyed it, and I listen to it every time I watch the show.
Ga-rei Zero has a lot of potential to REALLY wow me, and I’m hoping it will. The story has a lot of strength behind it, though I originally expected something lackluster. The basic premise is that the Japanese government has been forced to create divisions of their national defense force to protect the nation against spirits. Yes, spirits. I believe the whole idea is a blend of Shinto and Buddhist concepts of the afterlife. Vengeful human spirits are attacking living people and destroying property, and it is the task of certain teams of agents to defeat them. It’s pretty weird, but the story itself is good. I won’t spoil anything, but check it out if you get the chance.
Another opening theme I like, even though the anime itself is UBER overhyped, is the opening theme to Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann. I don’t even really like Gainax that much in general, actually. While Gurren Lagann entertained me and gave me a lot of encouragement with the whole ganbarre attitude, I just don’t think it was innovative or incredible like Death Note, Code Geass, or Haruhi. Evangelion was pretty good, but I think it’s more confusing and convoluted than it is intelligent. The writers of Death Note and Code Geass knew how to write something so that the readers/viewers could understand without having to be on the writing staff.
Let’s talk about anime.
I decided to start this wordpress blog because I’m a follower, crowdpleaser, tagalong, and imitator.
Not really. I decided to start it because I thought it might be fun. I really don’t know what the first thing I want to write about is, so I’m just gonna start thinking and write what I’m thinking about.
I just watched the first few episodes of an anime called Ga-Rei Zero. It’s cool, but there are a few things I’m not fond of. For example, one of the characters fights with briefcases. Yes, I said BRIEFCASES. I thought maybe they had guns in them, and he was going to open them later, but apparently that’s not the case. He straight up fights with briefcases. I really don’t like gimmicky things like that. I feel the same way about the dude in One Piece who fights with three swords. I would prefer he just fight with two and be cliche than for him to fight with three and be gimmicky.
On a completely unrelated, much more depressing note, I wanna talk for a minute about myself and the way I’ve lived my life for awhile now.
I’m depressed. I hate not having a job, I hate not being in school, and I hate beyond measure being a freeloader. I have applied to many places, but still haven’t gotten a job. I’m not saying that to blame my circumstance on anyone else. This is all me. I need to live, but my depression makes me feel hopeless. Honestly, I’m about 95% certain of the cause and source of my depression, and I’m pretty sure that once I get out of this house, things will change. That’s the rub, however, because I’m in a sort of Catch 22. I feel hopeless and worthless, so I don’t want to try at anything because I feel like it’s all a waste. I don’t THINK it’s all a waste. I want to make a big distinction here. My cognition on the subject tells me all the right things to do, but my emotions are like a leash, constantly pulling me back into my old habits of avoidance, isolation, and stagnant inaction. There was a major breakthrough in understanding the situation recently, though. My parents went on a vacation to the mountains for a few days. During that time, it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I went out, looked for a job every day, worked in the yard, did the dishes, cleaned the house, etc. I was a fucking HUMAN BEING for once. The minute they got back, I went straight back to my room and isolated myself all over again. Now, please, don’t think I’m blaming them. Don’t think I’m saying it’s their fault I make my decisions. It’s not. However, it IS my father’s fault that I’m depressed. That, however, does not lock me into the things I’ve been doing, and so I need to change.
If anyone knows of anywhere that’s hiring, please tell me. I have to get my car repaired and pay off the student loan balance from last time before I can get back to school.
